Day 2...

Why is it when we take something out of our diet that we want it more, even when we know it's bad for us? Like seriously, why do I want sweet tea and soda right now? Do I need it? No. Is it good for me? No. Definitely not. So why the heck am I so addicted to it... I just don't understand. That is my biggest question tonight.
I really want bread right now too. And that could be because I didn't eat a big enough breakfast or lunch so I am really hungry right now or it could just be because in my head, I know I am not suppose to eat those things for the next month, which with my stubbornness makes me want them more.... 

Anyways. Day 2 has been hard. Maybe because I realize just how long a month can feel like. Or that I just always have to be prepared. Or that I still don't like when recipes turn out wrong which makes dinner hard because you don't really want to eat the same thing again but that is what you have on the schedule... Or because being healthy after being unhealthy for so long is just that. Hard. It is a whole new way of life. A new way of thinking. A new way of choosing. A new frame of mind. And sometimes, people don't like to change the way they think or do things. 

I know I need to be healthy but sometimes I wonder if it really matters. (I know it does... don't yell at me.) But being the way I am, I like to look at things from all angles, at least when it is effecting me in ways I don't always enjoy. I just wish being healthy was as easy (and cheap) as being "American," or also known as unhealthy. Being unhealthy is just so easy. Everything is already done. Prepared. Thought about (or not thought about and just thrown together) But easy isn't always the best way to go. 

I have chosen to do this Whole30 and although it is hard and I am having to trick myself into thinking this is going to be fun, I want to be able to say that I accomplished something. I'm not saying I am going to be perfect. But I want to be able to look back and think, I did that. I spent an entire 30 days focusing on making myself better (I also want to look back and see a difference in my body, but don't we all want to see that difference in our looks) So here is to doing well and accomplishing goals, even though they are hard.