Day 2...

Why is it when we take something out of our diet that we want it more, even when we know it's bad for us? Like seriously, why do I want sweet tea and soda right now? Do I need it? No. Is it good for me? No. Definitely not. So why the heck am I so addicted to it... I just don't understand. That is my biggest question tonight.
I really want bread right now too. And that could be because I didn't eat a big enough breakfast or lunch so I am really hungry right now or it could just be because in my head, I know I am not suppose to eat those things for the next month, which with my stubbornness makes me want them more.... 

Anyways. Day 2 has been hard. Maybe because I realize just how long a month can feel like. Or that I just always have to be prepared. Or that I still don't like when recipes turn out wrong which makes dinner hard because you don't really want to eat the same thing again but that is what you have on the schedule... Or because being healthy after being unhealthy for so long is just that. Hard. It is a whole new way of life. A new way of thinking. A new way of choosing. A new frame of mind. And sometimes, people don't like to change the way they think or do things. 

I know I need to be healthy but sometimes I wonder if it really matters. (I know it does... don't yell at me.) But being the way I am, I like to look at things from all angles, at least when it is effecting me in ways I don't always enjoy. I just wish being healthy was as easy (and cheap) as being "American," or also known as unhealthy. Being unhealthy is just so easy. Everything is already done. Prepared. Thought about (or not thought about and just thrown together) But easy isn't always the best way to go. 

I have chosen to do this Whole30 and although it is hard and I am having to trick myself into thinking this is going to be fun, I want to be able to say that I accomplished something. I'm not saying I am going to be perfect. But I want to be able to look back and think, I did that. I spent an entire 30 days focusing on making myself better (I also want to look back and see a difference in my body, but don't we all want to see that difference in our looks) So here is to doing well and accomplishing goals, even though they are hard.

Day 1.... I'm still not excited

So yesterday, when I was originally going to start this Whole30, I realized it was Memorial Day and that I wanted to enjoy my day off. I didn't feel like cooking or really doing anything. So I sat on my butt and had nachos for lunch and Wendy's for dinner (right after going to the grocery store and buying all types of healthy food.. oops..) 

BUT! Today I actually started my Whole30 program. I decided I'm going to do it my own way... I'm not going to be super strict but I am going to mostly follow it. But I feel like my day 1 was a great start.
For breakfast, I had two hard-boiled eggs (but their middles were not completely done) so I only ate the egg white and a banana. I definitely missed my milk but I can go 30 days without milk.... hopefully. 

For lunch, I had a simple can of tuna and some pineapple. I felt like I was in Hawaii (okay, not really....)

For a snack when I got to work, I had sunflower seeds and almonds. A little while later, I had a bag of fruit, pineapple, strawberries, and grapes. YUM! 

For dinner, I had made spaghetti squash and turkey Dijon meatballs.... but it was disgusting. The meatballs had a super weird flavor and they smelt weird.. I was definitely not a fan. And the spaghetti squash wasn't warmed up enough and I didn't have any sauce for it.... oops.. So it could have been good but all together, dinner was a definite flop. A BIG FLOP. But at least I tried. 

I did have a Larabar, which are delicious. I do enjoy the ones that aren't approved more but I guess I can suffer with the more boring ones for now.

I haven't drank anything but water today and it really hasn't been that bad. Which kinda of surprised me. I have wanted to eat bread all day but I think that is just because I love bread, carbs, and thing with grains... I'd also still like a glass of milk but I always want a glass of milk...

So far, this little project isn't terrible but I am definitely ready for day 30....

Day 0.. again?

So yesterday, I said I was going to be starting my Whole30 experience today, but seeing as how I just ate a tasty burger with fries and then came home and poured myself a glass of Dr Pepper (I tell you, it's my weakness...), I'm actually going to start this journey beginning tomorrow. 
If you think it is because I messed up at lunch today, you would be wrong. I realized last night on the way to the wedding I was going to that I wouldn't be getting home till late and that I had still yet to go grocery shopping. Which meant, that I actually had a very limited selection of food I could eat in my fridge and pantry. 
Although, I did eat a Whole30 breakfast (which was actually not their suggested breakfast), I decided on my drive to church that I would begin this journey tomorrow because that was most logical. 
Also, who starts something on a Sunday? Not me. So there's that. 
I'm also still trying to pep myself up about this little experiment. Since I'm still not super pumped and excited about it.
So here we are at day 0 again.... 
Tomorrow we will start at day 1, which means I should probs get myself to the grocery store... Gross a grocery store on a Sunday, the day before Memorial Day.... well this was a terrible idea. (Why didn't I go yesterday?!?!)

Day 0- Day before Day 1

Today is Day 0.... let me be honest. I am still really skeptical about doing this Whole30. I have reasons for doing this but my number one reason is because I want to feel better about myself. I think the easiest way to do this is by having my body feel better. That makes sense, right?

So I've done a lot of research. Found a handful, which has turned into a word document full, of recipes. Made a spreadsheet of Day 1 through Day 30 of the different recipes to try. Printed out the different documents from the Whole30 website. And even told my trainer I was going to do this..... (great, now someone that lives close and loves health&fitness is going to be asking me about this) SOOOOO... I guess I am really going to do this.

I think my biggest fear is not finishing. But I keep reminding myself, IT IS ONLY 30 DAYS! Anyone can do anything for 30 days, right? 

I am really going to miss my Dr Pepper and sweet tea. I love my sugary drinks, way too much. So I know this will be a good thing for me. But still, they are my unhealthy love addictions. I will also really miss milk. Those three drinks are what I drink. So it is going to be really weird (and a kick in the pants) when all I am drinking for the next 30 days is water. -_- (Can you tell I am really excited about that... cause I'm not.)

One thing that I am hoping happens is that I can tell a difference in the way my clothes and body looks/feels. My biggest problem when it comes to diets or exercising is that I get really discouraged when I don't see a change in the way I look. It is nice when other people tell me they see a change or they can tell I have been doing something different, but to me, I struggle the most when I can't see the change. So I am really hoping that this helps to jump start that because I feel if I can  see the change then I will be able to continue to change my body in a positive way.

This journey should be very interesting during this next month. Along with changing my lifestyle eating habits, I will also be starting up school again for the summer... not super uncommon for a college student. So what is so interesting about this... I will be taking 18 hours of summer school this summer. 12 hours in summer one and 6 in summer two. Yeah, I know. I am crazy. I can already feel it setting in. But the good thing is, since I am taking so much school in summer one, I am not able to work during June. This means that I will have (some) extra time (when I'm not reading a book or studying) to prepare meals and evaluate how I am feeling and doing. I will also have time to continue to work out.

For the past six months, I've been training with a trainer. It has been a really awesome experience. But I'm really disappointed that I did not try to change my diet, AT ALL. I continued to eat crap food and continued to drink sugary drinks (my loves, Dr Pepper and sweet tea). This caused me to not see the changes that I wanted to see which meant that all the hard work I was doing at the gym wasn't even paying off when it came time to weigh or when I would put clothes on. I am hoping that with all the knowledge that I have gained within the past six months, that I will be able to apply it when I am working out also. We shall see.

Within the last month, I have also picked up a new found joy, which I never thought I would say, but I have started to run. Not because someone is chasing me with a knife, but because I want to. Weird, I know. But I have found running to be such a stress reliever and a time when I can really push myself. I find it very freeing. (I feel so weird typing this because even six months ago, I would have never thought of myself as a runner.) I am still not the best at running but just like everything else in life, it takes time. I'm hoping by the end of the year that I will be able to run (without stopping) a 5K. And my other goal is by the end of the summer that I will be able to run a full mile without stopping... YIKES! That is kinda scary/exciting. We shall see on this too.

Although I have many fears and negative feelings about this whole lifestyle change, I think that I will really enjoy the process. I am hoping to write (even if it is just a sentence or two) everyday about this journey but sometimes life gets in the way, so I am not making any promises. I do plan on at least sharing at the end of each week, what I ate, what I thought about what I ate, and how I am feeling. It should be very interesting/entertaining. So here goes nothing! Whole30- Kelley addition is starting NOW! (well technically tomorrow since I have a wedding tonight, but y'all get what I mean.)